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Saturday, May 26, 2012 at 3:00AM 
Photographer/Model Unknown
Lights // Ghostwridah feat. Earthtones
It seems like things are always changing. Guess that’s just life’s way of messing with you to keep you on your toes. I so hate allowing big chunks of time to pass between posts but you know how the story has been going for some while now...lots on my plate. So much so that I can barely keep up with myself and the fam let alone write about it sometimes. I don’t know if you would categorize that as someone who could possibly be a bit overwhelmed, but some days I do feel like I am. Think I’m fine with that though. Especially since I know one thing to be true: Things change from day to day and you never know what’s coming down the pipeline next, but whatever it is you must embrace it. Even the sun will continue to rise and fall on its own so you might as well make the most of each day by putting that theory into action. I feel like sometimes we're up, sometimes things get crazy, sometimes we're down, and other times we're riding the clouds. I make it a point to observe all of these life periods given the great lessons they carry. Not to mention the fact that the future promises mighty things to those who choose to focus intently on the matters of today; which is why I'll continue to do what I need to do while looking toward the outcomes of tomorrow. That's pretty much the sweet spot of living that I've been seeking to operate in as much as possible these days.
A little update...
My daughter graduated from high school this week. Even as I typed that I had this WTF?? look on my face, LOL. Like, did I really just say that and is it really true? Of course it is. If you’ve been reading my posts for a while you know the back-story behind it all. Young mommy, gave birth to her at age 15, living on my own since 17, gave birth to a second child before I was even 21, blahzay blah...and above anything else I vowed to get to this day where I can relish in the fact that I have raised two beautiful, intelligent Black Girls who will go out into the world and show it exactly what they are made of. Although accepted to Howard and Spelman, my oldest has ultimately decided to go with her top choice - a school in NYC where she'll focus solely on acting and the dramatic arts. Which means she’ll be moving to Manhattan in the fall right and around the corner from our New York office (an added incentive for me). I've already got all my peoples in the area on high alert to keep an eye out, in addition to giving her a fair warning that I'll be lurking and stalking much more than she probably thinks, LOL, so I think she'll be fine. ;-)
And then there was one. My youngest daughter has five years to go until she graduates and I’ve already started planning my international tour that will be begin the day she jets for college. Given the fact that I’ve been raising kids since I was a teen, I feel like my life is really just beginning and I'm gaining more time to focus on things pertaining to just me. Like the novel series I’ve been dragging out for decades finally getting done. Lingering film and television projects that are waiting on me. A decent workout and yoga regimen without worrying about some unexpected motherly duty interrupting my flow. I'll be able to shop more, play more, give more, love more, and be more - all of it sounds good to me.
A dark secret is that I’ve always said that I thought I did things backwards and out of order in life. Kids first, then college, then work, then more college...and just forget about the husband and house with a white picket fence, LOL. Then I had to re-read some of my own work to remind myself that everything happens as it should despite whether or not you follow society's standard blueprint. So what if I’ll be writing for a living, traveling the world, and fulfilling my dreams while my friends are getting married and having babies? Does it matter which great and beautiful thing comes first so long as it comes? I don't think so. I think its all about taking life as it happens, looking toward the light, and becoming a master of the integral skill of turning shit to sugar.
-Black Girl












